myself — thieves — myself — irs, sallie mae, ex-significants, self-consumptive-over-tendencies — my obsessive nature — emf — theives — my fears — my neighborhood — manipulation — julia scher — myself — desires — wealth — rpi — spam — dishonest people, violence, work, people — snakes — mom — msg — products — me — trusting people — society — postmodern cynicism — failure — Martha Stewart–network news — the sun–thesystem — hidden microphones — Women — Women — order — powerful white men — T h i s R a c i s t, S e x i s t, H o m o p h o b i c, M o r o n i c, school I attend named R.P.I. — Asian boys who think they want to date me. — gail — people — my mother — speaking in public — bruce — infinite regress ad absurdum to psychosis — – Organized religion, and its influence on culture — conceptual art — Yog Sogtoth — this website — The grey people — myself. who else? — Yvette — – the cruel cruel world — from almost everything — figs — YOU — depravity — gated suburbs — I, John Sievers, need to be protected from my own poor taste in furniture — Morons in power — – blue — EGOISTS — cheesecake and rat turds — melodrama — people — my ego — I consuming myself — life & time — – mold & mildew — fear — this computer — infomercials selling me gizmos that make cleaning easier — a dissertation topic — myself..and the boogabean — monetary predjudice — an uncultured society — all and nothing — love — The opinions of others — muggers — – — somebody who really loves me — myself..her — god`s revenge — mirrorerrors — – The voices in my head that compel me do perform those tasks that I find less than appealing. — – ice cream — – dysfunctioanl women — myself — Granny — Trip — Government Intervention — Government Intervention — death — The Microsoft Slogan RENOVARSE O MORIR — people like me — boy — you — mobsters — mother — my brother — financial ruin — – I am sick of being protected. I want to be free. — self — The world’s monstrous ways, your apathetic glaze, my own worst days, the rest of this plce….. — jeff’s black friends — my mother — rock-a-billys packing heat — sharks and my parents — life — myself — you — Me Myself and I — my thoughts — nothing — from my lies — myself — frogs — i need protection from sadness and immobility — Apathy and lack of faith — men — liers — reality — PEOPLE — PEOPLE — PEOPLE — – lies — unbridled aggression of skunks — athletes foot — touchy feelies — myself — aliens — the freaks — police — mean people — – my mother — invaders — trains — me — Mitch Rosenberg and Martha Tonkin — myself — – myself — others’ lies — pepols heads and spesiali my own head — myself — – — the government — each other — harm — the everyman — my own anxiety — reality — crime, the neighbors — air — save souls — society — – I don´t know — I don´t know — disease — disease — deceitful individuals — myself — myself — – — modern art museums — Unneccesary worry — the machine — life — financial insecurity — – myself, society – basically from everyone — envy mainly — violent people — danger — – questions — insecurity — people who like to protect me — myself — anyone in authority — art that sucks — hypocrisy — Women — hate — myself — fear — – schmoozlers — everything that is or isn’t, both the known and the unknown — – the world — Mr T, bent paper clips, and oragami. — From Such Webpages — – impending homelessness — stupit web projects — people — – — myself — flitting shadows in the periphery of my vision — – the passivity — – life — PROTECTION — drunken drivers — life — me — Myself — the person i used to be; the person i was supposed to have become — – myself — my job at lycos — – — stally wags — un-constraint — lies — myself — nothing nothing nothing real — me — eviction — speaker phones — the color YELLOW — mundane brain thought -lock patterns — a bunker — myself — – peni — cheezwiz — The Clinton Administration — fire, sun, bad people — introversion — – misery — – money — katholic fundamentalists — myself —

i need to get one — — too obsessive and too inefficient — my obsessiveness — stop apologizing — stop apologizing — stop apologizing — stop apo — my shyness — being less direct — confidence — assertiveness — – nothing, i’m not critical enough — compulsive hand-washing — need to become less easily distracted — i shouldn’t be so trusting — my concentration span–insecurity — self-esteem — chaotic demenor — I need to calm down — nothing — too demanding — I need to be more of a bitch. I’m too nice. — my need to control the unknown — I need to set my priorities straight — everything — – dependency on girlfriend living in ex nihlo — My fixation on genital mutilation — my hesitation to speak — wishiwashiness — ego — give myself more credit — – externalisation — – anger about not being asked to do a project at adaweb — my temper — meaness, fatness, phobias — The fact that I am, indeed, John Sievers — waking up in the mornings — Need less addiction to computers — I’m too dapper and debonaire for this — nothing — – — I eat too much cheesecake and rat turd — Actually, I don’t eat rat turd, but I act like one a lot. — My Personal Outlook — apathy — keeping in touch with friends when I move — My inability to handle conflict — – — confiance — I want yo be more rabid — – I am kinda confused, what’s going on here? — A tendency to become locked into everyday cycles of repetition. — of repetition. — – nothing — be more productive — i’m too trusting — my fear of insecurity — my ability to be violent and aggressive in the face of mediocrity — laziness — xxx — I larry mccue lay claim to my arrogance — Jenny Holzer — jenny holzer — jenny holzer — shyness — – my excessive sexual appetite — the will to bring something to an end — I would have to be more constant — Self-doubt. self-hate. Laziness. Apathy. Muteness. Shyness. Inability to communicate who I am. Fear. Self-absorption. — My need to please others at the expense of pleasing myself (except of course masturbation – which is not a problem with me.) — true to myself, more grounded, more relaxed, happier — to be of a happy disposition — nothing — lycra — sex — love who loves me — – — straightness — nothing, ok? — my eagerness to please — X out the procrastination portion of my personality! — – my sense of style — money — my self — lifeover needed — insularity — – discipline — LACK OF SELF-CONFIDENCE — – my hair — – — money — nada — insecurity and fears which lead to incompetency — vulnerability — – negativity — – nothing — i’m too lazy — fearful complacentness — everything — commitment to life purpose — nervousness — ? — ? — ? — irrascibility — irrascibility it is none of your fucking business — self contained self confidence — my indecisivness — I need to shave — – I need to have more drive … — nnnnnnnnnnnnn — my pessimisticness — procrastination — anxiety — i want to be less desperate and more carefree — no-loving orlovig people — – me — assertiveness — myfearmyfearmyfear — I FART TO MUCH >~~ — – temper — raise assertion levels — obssession — nothing I’m perfact — looks — abruptness — – my generally confused state of mind — trust more God and god god is God and God is god — contiousness — lazzyness — does knowing what you want and who you are have anything to do with you PERSONALITY? Not mine. — does knowing what you want and who you are have anything to do with you PERSONALITY? — – — – — self-discipline — general presentation — obnoxcious — – i have to either stop lying, or lie better — inertial guidance systems — tendency towards withdrawal & introversion — my incessant need for love — stop PROCRASTINATING — – — showing what you can and do — – — tendency to overload new people with my ecstatic presence — you — more confidence, more self-righteousness — Time spent watching informercials — the gender — eye color — – be rude — selfishness — need to get more experienced in life- need to gain more self-confidence–guess I have to try to become a better person… — – try to be less controlling — – make more stuff — wonder who? — my laziness — nothing — social skills — the wrapping — Courage — I’m too shy — hair — – — – nothing — the lot — self-conciousness — happiness — – deprivation — – I want to be more consequent in my behaviour — focuse on concentration and relaxation — – more power — money — – — how tall I am —

SEX

— I RESIST THE ART-HOUSE-WANKER-SCENE — – Í´d like to understand men — everything — – me — decisiveness — I want an enire reprogramming of my central nervous system now!!!!!! — don’t know what i want — – — – inhibition — my perpetual laziness — my love of violence — bad habits — my appearance — my confidence — – GREED NEEDS NO INTRODUCTION — GREED NEEDS NO INTRODUCTION — nothing — yes and no — insecurity — insecurity — willingness to take computer surveys — – i must sPEAK MORE LOUDLY !! — love — appearance — my hair — time — selfishness — everything but me — dark — impatience — relax!!!! — FEARS —

chocolate and figs — chocolate — saying no and saying yes — unprotected oral sex — over confident people who speak more than one language — i am shallow — blindness, unawareness — temptation — over critical — subseptibal to high temp — sometimes i’m selfish — comming to rpi — too preachy — chocolate — men in power — math — sometimes I’m selfish — i am too sensitive, puerto rican surfers — my apathy — – procrastination — sex depraved smart minds — food — food — attraction to women dependent on sex starved brains — Selflessness, selfishness, spelling, other words that begun with the letter “S” — fresh juice and brazilians — ticklish — hmmm — great minds — easy distraction & too-attractive energy — sex, food, ego, my left breast — Being that I am John Sievers, I would have a profound weakness for New Media (or so says my medium). Oh, and Puerto Rican surfers. Yum! — My legs — my brain — rats in the act of turding while I eat cheesecake. — I’m sensitive – and I’d like to stay that way — sitcoms — voices in my head inaudible — diet pepsi — I have none — apathy — bad work ethic — {ANONYMOUS PUBLIC SEX, NEED TO CONTROL SURROUNDINGS, WANTING TO BE YOU, SELF-RELIANCE, GAG/RETCH WHEN FEELING TRAPPED, SALT ‘N GREASE} — I can be easily persuaded, too easily — Lilac Wine. Mojo Pin. Hallelujah. Grace. So Real. Dream Brother. Last Goodbye. What Will You Say. Witches Rave. The Sky is a Landfill. — – The 3 “P”s that momma warned me about: Pot, Pornography, Potato Chips. — poverty — – — – — – oggling — – need for discipline — why would I want to tell you? — my wrists — insecurity, appearance, depression, laziness, youth — BOYS — BOYS — tawdry Victorian novellas and stolen European hotel feather pillows — tawdry Victorian novellas and stolen European hotel feather pillows — self underselling — – — other people’s lack of energy, pornography — Addiction to the opinions of others — i am scared — too many to mention w/o embarassment — I’m completely obsessed with world domination. Oh yeah, and I’m a sucker for a guy with a sexy foreign accent. This has not helped my world domination strategy very much at all. — FOOD — FOOD — FOOD — FOOD — FOOD — FOOD — FOOD — FOOD — FOOD — FOOD — egotistical, cruel, obstinant — – flattery; I blush — drugs love — I have no weaknesses — – fear — soft spokenness?…can be….! — me — stress — lost in thought — low self esteem — not trusting god for my life — – attention — bored — homelessness — a broken mind — smoking — – — My mom is my only problem — skin — creme caramel — – life — obsessing about food — sex — chocolate — being not consequent enough- don’t know what I want, but I’m not satisfied either- I can’t get enough of everything and I think that “damages” my friends… — – — at least one orgasm every day — my lack of intelligence, my laziness, my lack of sleep, my dentist, alcohol — perfectionism — Irregular sleeping pattern — – chocolate — – women — – Burger king — coffee — – loneliness — too kind, women — – too nice — DEPRESSIVE, ANTI-SOCIAL — I don´t like to live on this planet — stupidness (emotional honesty) — mail me to zonus@dialup.ptt.ru — – — kellog’s pop tarts — deflated orifices with a dash of malaise — shy — – my love of destruction — sex — 45 — mURDEr — – lazy — – I like too many things — – — I have none — o.k. — i am hot — plainness — can’t say no — I’m Way to nice and F…… kind!!!! —

that they will know — staring — sex — people — people — people — people — people — people — people — people — body oder — body oder — touching — ? — TOUCHING — kissing — responsibility for their emotions — – telephones — preconceptions of character — touching — comprehension — the ability to reproduce — m i s t a k e s — confession — grabbers — – intrusion — the fact that nobody really understands anybody — My own true intentions, ambition, and motives — eye contact — They want too much attention from MOI — – speech — murder, rape, love — the truth — – That noone will e-mail me at johns@denimsoftware.com — People think I smell like rat turds….as if that’s a bad thing. — reaction — not knowing where you stand….what is next – Vulnerable — having to make small talk — Alien zoo warehousing — that i will say something embarrassing — they talk back — idea of slaughter — nothing — all of the screaming. — love — – being taken advantage of — insincerity — sponteneity — {exposure, public humiliation, torture, sex, commitment, speaking truth} — x — being judged. being misunderstood. the loss of self. the possibility of rejection. the transience of it all. It mightn’t last. — fearexchangements — The ability of others the see the failure within. — an insight into how ugly people can be — fear of alienating others with my odor — duplicity — i am scared of all humans. — I AM NOT AFRAID — boasting — sex — eyes — unpredictability — death — loss of contact through computers — that I will be dismissed for the mere fact that I am young unattractive and “just a girl” — – shaking hands — – conciquenes — we are all the same — being placed down — – ugly people — why are you hurting my feelings? — marrige — moodiness — – Dinner & movie, and sex afterwards. — Relating — – jumping germs — PEOPLE — REALITY — – sex — fear — the distance — the interaction between humans — eyes — Talking (-limelife-) — i am afraid that people are trying to one-up me — risking humanity — – verbal communication with myself — the sex — the touching, the lack of touching, the taste — – rejection. — the other people — rejection — rejection — jerry springer fans. people who get off on the filth of the earth. — – Dan Sadan — people showing me that they think that I am stupid- and people disliking me and showing this very openly — My jokes not being laughed at — that they are driving cars — pollution — judgement of pther people, — thecan see me — Utilitarianism — Arrogance — – they’re laughing at me they hate me — personal contact — lovers — – Canabalism in the outer Atlantic tribes. — – the talking — humiliation — sorrow — how people percieve me — – sex — somebody refusing to pass me the salt — – do not know — – LACK OF INTERACTION WITH A CROSS SECTION OF SOCIETY — – some men cant fuck with a condom on — perfumes — the humans — sex — scaling that dang wall of china that surrounds the soul aura of most two legged sapienzzzzz — self gratification — they want my time — – nothing — the taste of rejection that only others can provide for me — divulgance — chess — – our constant need to lie in order to make people happy — violence — MY FAVORITE PART OF THE DAY IS WHEN I GET TO COME HOME AND ENTER IN ALL OF MY DNA INTO A DECODER. THATS WHAT REALLY MAKES ME TICK. — failure — conformity — eyes — they might touch me — inanity. — pants — germs — – sexual abuse of children — being stopmed on and squished out of the picture — attachment — embarrassment —